It seems that we all have something in our life that we struggle with the most. Often times these are buried so deep within us that they are hidden from the rest of the world. When your deepest struggle is your weight, it is out there for the whole world to see. I think that this makes it even harder. It is no secret that I have struggled with my weight since my mission 10 years ago. I could go into all of the reasons why, childhood trauma, coping mechanisms ect... The reality is that these things do not matter to me anymore. I have decided NO MORE. I drew a line in the sand that I will not cross. I am changing my life, completely.
I am working with a counselor to deal with the childhood trauma, coping mechanisms ect... I am going to the gym everyday but Sunday. We bought bikes. We have purged our house, and I am even cooking fish! (I know, HUGE shocker there.) So today is our one week mark. So far I am down 9.5 pounds! At one point I was down a little more, but it was a rough weekend. But seriously, 9.5 pounds in one week?! I have not lost that in the past 3 years. I am motivated and excited. I am trying to teach myself and my children healthy habits that will last the rest of our lives. My goal is 75 pounds this year and another 45 next year. I am going to do this, and you are going to hold me accountable. I will keep a running update everyweek on the side of my blog. If you see me lapse - PLEASE kick me in the face.
There are so many people who have been a motivation to me, many do not even know it. I would say the three people who have inspired me the most have been Aime Rittler and Allie Sensinger with their continual running and Jodi Reeve with her working out. They keep me motivated and I finally decided, if they can do it, so can I!
So here it goes. Week Two.